Memoirs of a Single Mom

So I have always been obsessed with dragons....collecting figurines, drawing, viewing paintings about dragons. I always somehow wished in my mind that they were real and a part of our world...or maybe one day back in time they were. The dragon has always been a symbol to me, of my inner self. More the majestic type of dragon, guarding it's master and crystals then an evil dragon who longs to take control of the world. I wish I had the wings, power and majesty that the dragon posses. The flawless mystique and grace. Maybe one day we will discover that their once was dragons long ago. For now I just have my imagination.

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise


by Maya Angelou

I just recently read an article by a man who has alot of insite on what it's like to date a single mom. He basically hit the nail on the head with every point, good and bad. But alas, every relationship has it's good and it's bad.
Here is the article. Enjoy!

http://www.askmen.com/dating/dating_advice_60/73_dating_tips.html

Hiding

I hid you inside my mind
When they came to find you
I didn't let them in
Because no one can touch me
Now that I live in your smile

Show me the earth and stars
I never cared before
Before my world knew yours
Before my eyes knew you

Jump in the garden
What did I see
Black eyed angels
Swim with me

I ran for the stars
and I struck out
Of all the things I used to be

All my love is withered inside me
Drawing past the future
We all were terrible
when there was nothing to fear
Nothing died

...can go suck a nut! I am not paying $800 back for my 2007 tax return that they screwed up on. Noway, nohow!

Ok..some people have brought it to my attention that my previous post sounded too anti-long island. I do like long island, i really do. I will be here for another few years. It's basically the monetary reasons. But that is a struggle for everyone here. If they just got rid of the status and lowered housing costs...most of us could thrive comfortably. Ok...said my peace. LOL

Ok, I have a dream. I hope that my life eventually will go in this direction. I want to move down south. Possibly Charleston, SC or a similar location. Long Island has been "getting old" for a long time now. I am done here. I am done with the endless stream of cars, costly homes and apartments, pretentiousness, status, rat race....I am not meant to live here for the rest of my life. Why my parents stayed for all these years, just amazes me. Here is just a few examples of why South Carolina is more my style. Will it ever happen for me? Will Nick know what its like to live comfortably without the constant worry if Mommy can pay for his toys and clothes? Will we ever be able to walk outside and see palm trees and spanish moss gardens? I hope the future will hold that for us. This is just one of my goals for myself and my son.